Damn, what a weekend, eh? I successfully lost two friends this weekend. I'll go into detail, because I can.

Saturday, I wake up to Jessica pulling the blankets off me saying, "Stephan just told me you cheated on me twice, Cody, we need to talk about this." She expected me to get pissed off, naturally, and I was. But I knew it was a lie, and was pretty shell shocked, and half-detailed at the time. So I didn't over react. Stephan came in the room and denied exactly what he had told Jessica. Again, proving that he has no spine. Jessica started to cry and left. I sat and stared at the door for nearly an hour. Inside, I was full of contempt and anger, and I wanted to lash out at something. But I didn't. I'm learning. Instead, I got ahold of Jessica via MSN, and got her to come pick me up for a carride.
I explained to Jessica that it was completely faux, and we got back on track and finished the night off perfectly.
So I wake up Sunday, and felt sick to my stomach, all of the cigarettes people were smoking over the weekend took it's toll on me. Jessica was going to cook me some food and went with Ivan to get some. On the car ride there, Ivan explains that I really did cheat on Jessica twice. Okay, first off, what the fuck? After thinking about it, I realized that there had to be a plan involved because the night before Stephan and I were talking about Jessica and I lasting forever, and everytime I talk to Ivan / Stephan, all they do is talk negitivly towards the relationship. I tried to talk to Stephan about it, but he decided to hide from his problems again, and block me from MSN. I guess he doesn't want someone to shatter his self-image, and tell him he is as big of a piece of shit as the same people he despises. Anyhoo, so I had to explain that to Jessica after band practice, (which could be the best part of the weekend.) We have things in the clear now, and I've came to this.

Jessica was here long before any of my "friends." I have good friends hiding in the shadows, like Rob(Spidle), Gabe, Skitch, Rob (Newbell), and some other anonymous people. But Jessica is there everyday, and cares for me like no one else can. Anyone that tries to fuck that up isn't worth being friends with. Stephan can say the things he said were just slips of the tongue and unintentional, but I know that is bullshit. If it was, he wouldn't of tried to cover it up when it was brought up. Sorry to anyone that reads this post. But I am highly pissed off at the moment.

By the way, Saturnine needs two new actors, anyone interested?

- Cody.